Sheep Guarding Llama

Saturday. We really needed some diversions today. Yesterday’s events were wearing very heavy upon us. And they will for a long time to come.

Started the day with some coffee. It has been a very nice week, warm and sunny. Today it turned chilly and rainy.

This afternoon, Dominica, Paul and I took Liesl and Luciana to Going Bonkers, an indoor play gym thing for kids. It was a good chance to get out of the house and get the kids away from all of the drama going on.

Going Bonkers was way too loud for me to handle. I had to hide in the high, sealed observation room where it was still loud, but not so bad. I had my Chromebook with me and talked to Maggie for a few hours. Had to get her up to speed on all that was going on, and let her know that finally after years of trying, we are now able to hire her. So Maggie is now no longer just on the fringe of the team, but a core team member now. We are starting quickly to reinvent the company. We have several positions to fill now, quite suddenly.

The girls had a good time and it wore them out a bit. It was a good idea to go out today. We all needed to get out of the house. We might have just gone to a playground today, but it was raining.

I did some DuoLingo with the kids this evening. They are enjoying doing it on a regular basis.

Friday. Today was a really bad day. Today we had to finally take decisive action based on what we had determined on Wednesday evening. Today is certainly a day that I cannot imagine ever forgetting. One of the singularly most traumatic in my life.

I was not able to really be online at all today. When Paul and Dominica had “the call” to deal with the situation this week, I was there for the first few minutes, enough to know what action we took, and enough to know that it was clear all around that everyone knew this was coming and no one was surprised, but it was all so horrible and emotionally devastating that I had to leave the room while the completed the call. This is going to stick with me for a really long time.

This pretty much consumed us for the day. And this is really the cause of why this was the “year without regular SGL updates”. So much that needed to be said, and so little ability to say it.

Thursday. A tough day after finding things out yesterday. Today is our day of decisions. So much to figure out. It is just awful. So much stress, so depressing. I really wish that it was something that we could discuss, that I could write about. It is extra unfair that something so terrible has been discovered and I am not really able to even write about it in my journal. Journalling here is really one of my best outlets for expression and emotional release. Putting things down here is a means of not having to hold on to things mentally as much. And when I need it badly, I can’t really use it.

This morning, the new shower base was being delivered to the local store. We are hoping to have our shower installed in about a week.

Ciana and Clara were playing Roblox today while on FaceTime and something happened that Luciana had had enough of playing with her cousin today and I overhead her make the statement “this is the point where we part ways.” Her speech patterns are so completely from me. It’s hilarious. My dad probably has stories of me speaking that way when I was young. Nothing like a six year old talking like she lived in Victorian England.

I had to do “real” work today, too. Lots of Windows 10 and Yealink phone patching.

Today Dominica had an entire bottle of laundry detergent fall while she was doing laundry and spill all over the carpetting in the hallway. So that carpet is completely destroyed now. Not the end o fht eworld, we really want to replace all of the carpets anyway and we want to make that hallway into simulated wood flooring eventually, anyway. But for the meantime, this is going to be a mess for a long time to come.

Tonight we watched Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets with Paul as we begin to work on our HP marathon.

Wednesday.  Today was a very, very hard day.  Today is the day that we truly figured out what has been going on for the last three or more years.  Today we know the truth.  No one can really believe it.  It’s such a shock.  We’ve been living in denial, but there is no denying things any more.  It was a truly horrible day.  Nothing that I can share here, but certainly one of the most emotionally devastating days of my life.

Around six we poured some whiskies.  The day was just too hard to handle.  Everyone is super upset and trying to internalize what we now know and figure out what we have to do with this information.

Tonight we started watching Harry Potter & the Sorceror’s Stone with Paul who, long ago, saw this one movie but has never read or seen any of the rest of the Harry Potter books or films.  So the girls are very excited to have Paul join us to marathon the movies, again.

Tuesday. A gorgeous morning here in Dallas, went outside first thing to enjoy some coffee in the atrium.

By noon it was getting almost to ninety degrees and we had to turn on the air conditioning.